OH MY GOD, IT'S BACK!

Yes. Yes it is.

Anyways.

Life as of late hasn't been terribly exciting. I'm mostly recovered from my cold. Just the occasional cough and a lot of sniffling (stuffy nose is still here). Nothing else interesting there.

Been spending lots of time on Xbox Live lately. I've met some decent people playing some public games of Horde on Gears. Good guys, fun to play with. Definitely better than twelve-year-olds (referred to from here on in as "12s" ).

Speaking of the 12s, I ended up with a group of them the other day who nearly went into shock when I spoke, because they realized I was a girl. I also found a 21-year-old who refused to acknowledge my femaleness, going as far as to state that "girls don't play Gears of War 2". Of course, he was one of those pissy guys who whined at me for getting more kills than him.

Oh, about those 12s, though. Lemme CP the story from my FB:

So I ended up with this group of southern 12s for Horde yesterday, while waiting for my Gears buddies to get back online. I had my headset on mute, because I didn't see the point in talking to them. They were babbling on about whatever, and I...I was getting all the kills. They were doing absolutely fucking nothing.

So around wave 3, one of them goes "Where are they all spawning?"

I unmute my headset and say "they're all down here, in the middle of the map." We were playing on Blood Drive (HATE BLOOD DRIVE).

Now, up until then, they'd all been chattering away, talking over each other, and rapping (BADLY). As soon as I speak, everyone just shuts up. It's completely silent. I'm thinking "the Hell did I do?"

Finally, one of them says "wait...you're a girl?"

I quit after another three waves of obnoxiousness.

Anyways, if anyone interested in playing Gears 2 or Left 4 Dead with me sometime, drop your GamerTag in my journal (if I don't already have you). I'll friend you sometime. Trust me, you'll know it's me. Even if my GamerTag isn't the same as my usernames everywhere else. You'll know.

Oh, but I guess you might bee wondering about the title. This is because, aside from breaking the 12s' worlds with my femaleness, I've also been hit on by a few of them. It's gone from the point of being funny (the first time), to being downright pathetic. Facts is, they'll try to hit on anything with boobs, and I almost pity them because they think they stand a chance.

Please. Really? You still sound like a six-year-old girl, gtfo my Live.

But yeah. I'm available for some gaming most of the time. Don't like playing alone, it gets boring, y'know?

On that note, SEV. SEV. SEVSEVSEVSEVSEEEEEEEEV. PLAY L4D WITH ME D:< OR I'LL COME TO NEW JERSEY AND EAT YOUR SHIRT.

Okay, so...yeah. Nothing much besides. See you guys around :]

Well, it's finally gone and happened. I guess it was to be expected, since everyone I hang out with is sick or has been sick over the past two or three weeks or something like that.

Yup, I'm sick too.

I'm feeling pretty weird right now. Throat isn't hurting but my head feels like...uh...like it's full of cotton half the time, and it hurts the rest of the time. Urgh.

I was gonna hang out with my sister on Halloween and binge on Chinese food and watch horror movies, but I don't wanna get her sick, so my Halloween plans are shot unless I somehow miraculously get better by Saturday.

Goddamnit, I hate being sick.

(DA needs a sick mood-thingy for journals.)

Captain Lou Albano died on the 14th of this month. For those of you didn't know him, he played the part of Mario in "The Super Mario Bros. Super Show".

I didn't grow up with the show. I'm not that old, people. Kage has the entire fucking boxset of it though, and I've watched a good chunk of episodes with him.

Celebrities have been dropping like flies this year. And you know what? I didn't give a shit until I found this out from HijiNKS Ensue the other day. As soon as they mentioned "mournfully doing The Mario", my brain kind of froze up and I just went "Oh no."

Like I said, I didn't grow up with the show. Hell, I even say the show was cheesy as all Hell. But for some reason, I'm pretty shaken up about this. Put me on the verge of tears, actually. I don't know why this has shocked me so much, but...Hell, it's just depressing.

May he rest in peace.

And for the record, this is "The Mario": [link]

I've lost 11.4 Lbs in one month :] I need a new belt.

Rules:
1. You must choose only ONE of your OCs. Do it again if you wanna use another OC.
2. Your OC must answer every question as truthfully as possible.
3. Title the journal as "OCs Quiz (your OCs name)".
4. When you're done, tag as many people as you want.
5. Have fun!!!

1. Hi! What's your real name and nickname?
People call me N. My real name...oh, you can live without it.

2. Interesting... what's your current age?
It's rude to ask a girl her age, you know Well, how old do I look? We'll just say that's how old I am, okay? Hehehe~

3. Uh huh. What's your favorite food?
Oh, you know what I can't get enough of? Desserts~! I know they're not "real" food, but still. Black forest cake is wonderful

4. And your favorite drink?
Strawberry soda~ It's tooth-rottingly sweet, but it's soooo goooood~

5. Confession time! Who's your crush/lover?
Oh, you mean Maku? He's my husband, honey. We've been together for quite some time, now.

6. Aww! Have you two kissed yet?
Oh...hehehe,,,we've done much more than just kiss by now, sweetie But I'll spare you the details. Suffice to say...I've had lots of fun. Hehehe~

7. Classic question! What's your favorite colour?
My, my...Grays. White. Most cool colors in pastels. My daughter andrea seems to have the same taste as me, but she'll never admit it.

8. Who's your favorite author?
I spend more time reading magazines than actual books. sorry, darling~

9. Now what's your biggest fear?
Oooh...losing my job is one of them. Honestly? If they knew how old I really am? I may look young, but I don't think they'd like it one bit...well, I guess it's more fear of being found out than losing the job, really. Another would be losing my family. I worry for Andrea in particular. I mean, I love Maku, but the man is practically invincible. But my little Andrea...well, she's not really on her father's level, you know? I'm always so scared for her. I don't know what Maku was thinking, giving her that job...

10. *stifles a giggle* I'm not laughing *bursts out laughing* Sorry. Any siblings?
*Points* Hey, now. Don't you laugh at me, you jerk.

*Glares a bit more, then sighs* Sublings? Oh...I don't even want to try to explain my family tree. you could say that Frost is something like a "sister" to me...ergh, look, it's really, really complicated, okay? We'll just leave it at that.

11. Almost, it's only twenty questions. Who's your hero?
A hero, a hero...honey, I am a hero to some people. I don't think I need one, okay?

12. Ok, who is your worst enemy?
Anyone who I consider competition. The world of music is a pretty rotten place sometimes...

13. What would you do if your hero and your worst enemy got together?
Hehehe~ Not happening, honey. You should listen more carefully, okay?

14. Interesting... what would you do if you met your creator?
Mm...well, I don't have many complaints about my life at the moment. I've got my ups and downs like everyone else, but for now, I'm in a pretty comfortable place. Really, though, the one thing I regret is that I wasn't around enough when Andrea was little. If anything, I'd want to know why she did that to my family. I love Andrea so, so much, but she's always so cold to me. I'm just worried about her, really...I just wish for once, she'd call me "mom" without sounding so annoyed. I never mean any harm.

...HEY! WHY'D YOU HAVE TO SCREW UP MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY DAUGHTER, DAMNIT?!

15. Okay, I'll contact them right now. Done! Now, what do you want to be when you grow up?
Sweetie, I am grown up. Back then, though, I didn't really know what I wanted to do with myself. I just kind of...fell into this. Where I am now. It's all because of Mei and Maku. The one time those two worked together without trying to rip each others throats out...of course, they went right back to hating each other after it, but I've ended up in a nice place.

16. What's your worst nightmare?
Hon, you really need to learn how to listen better. I already told you, didn't I? Unless you mean an actual nightmare, as in, while I sleep. I don't really remember my dreams, though, so I wouldn't be able to say.

17. What's your lifelong dream?
Really, the thing I want most in life is for Andrea to stop being so distant from me. I know I wasn't there, but I couldn't help that. I regret it so much, not being able to stay behind and having to leave her with her father...she hated me, you know. she hated me for a long, long time. Now she tolerates me, but it's not the same as her actually feeling any attachment to me.

I just want my daughter to stop putting up with me, and start actually loving me.

18. What would you do if your lifelong dream came true?
I know there's no way to make up for all the years we've lost. All the time that I was never around. All the moments I missed. But, at the very least, I'd try to spend as much time with her as I could. To try and connect. It's...it makes me want to cry sometimes. I feel like I've failed as a mother at some points.

19. Ok, where's your favorite place to relax?
The only place where I can get some privacy, which is home.

20. Last question! What do you spend most of your time doing?
I'm out of town a lot, doing shows in other places.

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This was a real downer to write after the last one. These things always start out so light-hearted and to-the-point; as they go on, they get deeper, responses get longer...answers become sadder. I haven't said much about N, but writing this from her frame of mind...I almost did cry myself. It's really sad.

I really need to get N and Andrea to have a moment. Y'know, a moment. So they'll stop avoiding each other. The really depressing thing is that N is right; Andrea is just putting up with her.

Uuuuugh. I think the only thing holding this family together is Maku, really. I never noticed it before.